I thought 2015 was going to be an exercise in embracing my strong suits. I like wedding and event work better than retail. The process feels more intimate and custom. You build relationships with clients and you get to create on a larger scale. And honestly this was the only place I felt my business model could be profitable. I want to actually design and touch all the Petal & Pine arrangements and a few $40 delivery arrangements just weren't going to support that possibility.

But I just couldn't let well enough alone. I couldn't just do what I've done well in the past. I am not done experimenting. And although I have serious doubts that it will end up on the short list of my strong suits, I’m going to attempt growing. I bought what I thought was a reasonable amount of seeds to grow a few flower specimens my growers declined to tackle. I was informed recently that I bought enough of just one variety to flower all of daviess county. and that of course is not reasonable. I’m lucky enough to have a few really amazing patient and available mentors who are helping me,. They are giving me lists and grow lights and all kinds of information I hadn’t thought to research while I drooled over all the pretty pictures in seed catalogues.

Honestly I’m terrified of killing everything because weeding will bore me. I’m worried won’t have time to nurture my little plants during the madness of wedding season. More worried that even when I have time, I won’t. Because nurturing is not really my thing.

But I am excited about getting away from the computer screen and getting outside. I’m excited about taking advantage of all this dirt at the new farm studio. I’m excited to have the brown flowers I can’t convince anyone else to grow!